Thoughts of a Middle Aged Mind

Good Afternoon, Hey, gonna get right to the point today. I’m off and I don’t know why. I’m even struggling to write this post today. I haven’t worked on my novel for a few days and I tried jumping back into my creative writing class and it was a struggle to pay attention. Which is a problem because I already started to write this week's assignment and it’s not good.  If you are wondering whether I was able to do my normal morning routine, that answer is happily yes. I’m writing this from out on my front porch. So that can’t be the problem. Also, I did an amazing meditation this morning with my chakra crystals. So that can't be the problem either. Sorry if I seem a bit frustrated. I have just been doing so well that I don’t want there to be any setbacks. But as I have said before I am always my own harshest critic. I need to remind myself that as long as I get done the things I set out to get done today, then it is a success.  So it’s time to go knock somethings off today's ...

“Me used to be angry young man Me hiding me head in the sand You gave me the word, I finally heard I’m doing the best that I can.” -Lennon/McCartney Good afternoon, Kinda like the idea of song titles and quotes to begin each post. Especially if I can find one that fits my mood, which shouldn’t be too hard, right? What does seem to be hard is writing this post, so I’m going to just start writing. Didn’t get a great night of sleep, but it doesn’t seem to have affected my mood. Counseling session went well and he agreed to keep it every other week. Now interestingly when discussing my near break down last weekend he said next time to try tapping on my chest to calm myself.  Ironically this is something the healer at the Ren Faire mentioned to me as a way to calm myself when I felt myself being triggered. She even went as far as to write down the gentleman's name and the name of the program (of course I lost the paper). But I remember that I subscribed to it on YouTube, so I am going t...

Good Afternoon, How is everything my friends? For me they are going well. I am feeling pretty good. Still waking up before the alarm no matter what time I set the damn thing. Not sure if I mentioned this before, but I stopped sleeping with my Apple Watch and I truly do think I am sleeping better. I do miss not having it during the day, I keep looking at my arm for the time. Plus it unlocks my phone when I am wearing a mask. Haha! Today was Day 7 of the Insight Timers Beginners Guide to Meditation and I am proud to say I did it. Adding in the days before I found the Beginners Guide I have probably meditated for 10 or 11 days. I can in all honesty say I am starting to notice a difference. Take today for instance, I normally wait until my girls are off to school and the house is quiet before I start meditating. Today I was excited to finish the course, so I couldn’t wait. I started before one of them left and I heard her getting ready during my session. In the past this would have been a ...

Good Afternoon, I hope you are having a good day. Today’s been interesting to say the least. Good thing/Bad thing, I slept late. Good because I got the sleep I needed. I have recently started to stop sleeping with my Apple Watch. I thought I was doing a good thing by tracking my sleep, but it turns out it was notifying me for everything. Sometimes it was even telling me to close my ring by going for a brisk 15 minute walk at 2 am. Having not worn it for a few days now I am starting to think I don’t need it. Bad, because I am completely thrown off my morning routine. Usually when I come down in the morning that house is completely quiet. Of course it is why would anyone be up at 6 or 7 am if they didn’t have to. But it turns out if I don’t get that quiet time in the morning it sets up my day to be as smooth. Determined to not let it get in the way of having a great day I completed Day 5 of the 7 Day Beginners Guide to Meditation. It was much harder to shut off my brain later in the day....